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[07 Jun 2009|01:39pm] |
be classy, assy, don't be gassy, something something something something something trying to stretch the page
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the color you will turn when you hang yourself brianne :] :]
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So fuck you too. (bifnaked) wrote,
@ 2009-06-09 18:30:00
I don't even know where to begin with this so I'm just going to say what's on my mind. I know that by posting this, I'm asking for trouble, I'm going to get laughed at by anons and whathaveyou but I don't even care anymore because there comes a point where to just stop caring. When you feel like you've reached your lowest point that you could possibly reach, and I'm there, and you can thank upswing for that. Never in a million years did I think roleplay, something that was supposed to be fun would turn into the nightmare that it has turned into. It was the one true escape I've had from an otherwise fucked up five, six seven years of my life and to this day I don't understand why I've been made out to be this big, horrible monster and why people feel the need to misconstrue lie after lie after lie about myself. I get that I haven't been the nicest person on this server, I am not saying any of what I've said as any kind of excuse. I've lashed out and done things I haven't been proud of, but I've apologized for those things and moved on and I haven't done anything near as bad as some people have, but once you get labeled into that "psycho" category you're known as that forever. I didn't go into roleplay thinking people like andrew would create fake private messages just to get me kicked out of a community because they dislike me for whatever reason, or that people like rachelle and perryman would wish death on me.
Well I'm here to tell you now that tonight your wish is being granted because I've had all that I can take.
Now you're just going to think the next part of this post is me wanting attention, and maybe it is, or maybe it's a cry for help. I'm not really sure. Maybe it's funny to you all but it isn't funny to me. Words hurt. All I'm sure of right now is that I've written a lengthy suicide note that mentions insanejournal.com, and June 9th, 2009 11:42 P.M. will be my resting date.
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